"YOU NINCOMPOOP!!"
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Kishima nodded slowly to the girl who had approached him and stepped back a little.
”I . . . Don’t think it is funny at all, I just . . . I honestly do deserve what you say to me. In every way, I truly do. I didn’t mean to lash out my anger on you all, I just want my little sister. My conation was simple, and it was wrong of me to say such things. There is no extenuation for what I did. Kishima looked down.
”I . . . promise you . . . that I wouldn’t hurt Sakura. I didn't come intact with anyone on my way here . . . I’m very sorry Miss Amachi, if I knew what has happened to your classmate, I would gladly tell you. But I am certain that I am not involved in whatever did happen to her . . .” Kishima sighed with a penitential tone. He looked over at the girl who angrily snapped at him with hostility.
”I . . . I understand how you feel . . . I really do apologize and I understand that that is not enough for you to forgive me for what I have done.” Kishima felt like he needed to just leave. He knew that he came for Remeku, but what else could he do? It’s not like the barrier would come down anytime soon, and if it did, it seemed that he would be attacked by angry students from this school. He understood what they felt. He would be mad as well, hearing someone just through abhorrence out on others . . . He has been dealing with it for a long time. He just wanted everything to be normal, but it would never be that way. The only people he should be mad at are Kirimi’s parents.
”I didn’t mean to act so aggressive toward him, not knowing who he truly is. I hope that I can make amends . . . I really hate reading someone’s mind without their permission . . . but I can’t personally control my mind reading.” Kishima looked over to Jay and gave him a half smile. He looked back to Felicity.
”I . . . didn’t mean to act like I was omniscient higher power . . . I am very sorry for doing that. When people were to fight my parents . . . or bullies from school I went to . . . I would always use my intimidating aura to scare people off . . . I am very sorry that I used that on you and your classmates. I respect your strength against someone like me. He didn’t waste his ability . . . He used it pretty well, considering that I feel a bit under his league. He seems way more skilled than I ever could be. I hate my ability, the pain it causes me and the glitches I get from it. I have nightmares because of this power taking over my head. I have been trying to get rid of it . . . but it takes brutal work. Jay, on the other hand, seems to love his ability, and he is very fluent with it.” Kishima put his hand on his heart and calmly whispered to himself.
”There is no forgiveness for me . . . Kishima suddenly felt a pained stab in his heart.
”what did she . . . say . . . ?” Kishima tried his best to keep his sanity in check. He couldn’t lash out again, these students didn’t do anything to Remeku. They’re her friends.
”I . . . I . . . You . . . She . . . I don’t know what else I’m supposed to do . . . ! Remeku was taken from my family at such a young age . . . ! It’s completely absurd . . . ! Of course I . . . was worried . . . about her . . . Because instead of being with a loving family . . . Remeku lived with a family that abandoned . . . her . . . ! I don’t . . . care . . . if I have never . . . seen her . . . her entire . . . life . . . I just want my family to be happy . . . ! Ever since she was taken away . . . My family has been depressed . . . !” Kishima talked through his gritted teeth. That was one question that he was unable to take calmly. It’s not his fault that he had to come intact with so many auras on his way here . . . It’s not his fault that he is mentally disabled. He wanted to get rid of his power, he wanted his sister, he wanted his family to be happy, he just wanted to be a normal boy.
”I am far from being High and Mighty . . . I like to think of myself as a mistake.” Kishima said in a somewhat regular way, like what he said was something someone would usually say.
”I do have morality but you would just see that as not having morality. I know I made a bad first impression . . . But I will try my best to fix that . . . I didn’t hurt anyone in your class . . . I wouldn’t hurt anyone, I assure you. Even if this barrier was down, and I would be able to touch you, I wouldn’t do anything to harm anyone, and it’s not like I could . . . there being no PVP. I don’t think it’s okay at all. Here, in the real world. I was just trying to let you know, that you will not lose your friend if she were killed here, I never said it was a good thing. I honestly think that it would be very tragic to die in a virtual world. Deaf to myself . . . ? I know I’m rude . . . I am very rude. I will not deny something so truthful. I don’t like lying. I hate lying. Lies are so cruel, even if it is to protect someone. I will not lie to you when I say, I deserve to die. When I should’ve been dead when I was born. When I do not deserve to even have a little sister. I will not lie to you when I say that I am an awful person, a monster in a human appearance. I will not lie when I say that I am happy this barrier is here, because I don’t deserve to leave with someone like Remeku. She is way too beautiful to be with someone as ugly as I am. I am two faced. Please, insult me more, I want to dissolve in the hatred.” Kishima smiled happily to Felicity. Kishima believed he should be dead, but weirdly didn’t want to die. He wanted to make things better, but his existence crashes things down. Kishima hummed in a happy tune.
”Yes, you are correct. A rat is way better than I am. I am something of dirt, or just nothing at all. My existence is pure disgust. I am very certain that you tell the bitterly sweet truth. I agree with you. I would be pleasing to myself if I were cadaverous. But, if you were to know, Miss Clover, we will all die one day.” Kishima sadly looked at a nearby tree that waved calmly in the wind, as snow came down like being buried alive.
”I . . .” Kishima broke into sudden tears.
”Everything . . . ! All that has happened . . . ! I just wish I could tell everyone how much I care about them . . . ! I wish that I could tell everyone that I’m sorry but it never works . . . ! All of my suffering, all of the one I have lost who suffered when they were alive . . . ! I love them all . . . ! I love everyone . . . ! I just want everyone to understand that I am a good person . . . ! I want to stand next to someone and tell truths not lies . . . ! I just want my sanity back . . . !” Kishima gently put his hand on the barrier and looked at Jay, with the tears still coming down from his right eyes.
”I would have had . . . Remeku sooner . . . if I didn’t try and get rid of this . . . stupid power . . . I tried to remove it in a gruesome way . . . and I was sent to the hospital for a very . . . long time . . .” Kishima let out an agonizing grunt.
”I am sorry . . . I’m so sorry . . . Darkness consumes me weather I want it or not . . . I want hope to be the answer . . . ! But i’m telling you . . . ! I only bring misfortune . . . ! I deserve any hate you throw at me . . . ! Please hate me . . . ! I deserve it . . . !” Kishima was trying to talk through his tears, but it was hard to understand what he was shakingly saying. Kishima pushed himself to keep talking.
”I don’t think . . . you’re a bad person at all . . . Maybe I should . . . just leave . . .” Kishima could feel all of his sins crawl on his back like a parasite. It was feeding on him slowly, leaving Kishima in an uneasy state. He felt his head resist his thoughts, keeping him from being able to think at all.
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"Wh--h-huh?" Mikael stammered as Remeku's voice, along with her entire mannerisms in fact, had changed. He thought only he was good at doing that."A-Ah . . . g-getting into character, I s-see?" Mikael asked weakly. "O-Or, um . . . oh, crap, this must be . . . th-this must be a lot for you to take in . . . U-U-Um, I g-guess . . ." He really wasn't sure what to say, let alone do, in this situation. He observed Remeku's poring over her science equipment, working hard on the potion she was making. At some point as he was spectating, he realized quite suddenly that it was becoming more and more difficult to move. He found it somewhat painful to even take a step. He shivered violently as frosty white specks had begun to appear around the surface of his form. "S-S-S-So . . . c-c-c-c-cold . . . I-I m-m-m-must . . . g-g-get in-ins-s-side . . ." He took one incredibly shaky step towards the cottage. Then another, and then a third. "P-Please . . ." Mikael's call was barely-audible, and he didn't even know what to ask for. But he needed to get out of the cold somehow. Why, if his best friend was so close by, did he suddenly feel so alone?~~~
Remeku held the sizzling potion in her hand delicately, getting ready to throw it, but was stopped by Mikael’s aura suddenly changing next to her. As she slowly looked over, her eyes became wider.
”Mikey~Senpai!!!” Remeku didn’t understand what was happening. Was it because she let go of the embrace? Maybe that’s what happened . . . How could she be so stupid!? Remeku quickly walked over to Mikael. It almost felt like it was a slow motion scene from a movie. It was the one time where Remeku wished she wasn’t so slow. She went up and just barely touched him, then let go immediately.
”You’re ice cold! D-Don’t worry . . . I won’t let you freez, my love!” Remeku smiled as she continued to stay in character, but yet still felt like she meant what she said. She was going to pull a potion out of her science bag for Mikael, but for some reason, she couldn’t do it. It was like her hand was strained to be pulled away from her bag, instead her hand reached for Mikael. It was like her heart and her reality were fighting against eachother. What was she doing? Her hand wouldn’t listen to what she was asking it to do.
”I . . . I . . .” Remeku moved closer to him and hugged him tightly. She had no idea what she was doing, but at this point she had no other decision but to just go with it. She closed her eyes and rested her head on Mikael’s chest, completely embarrassed.
“I . . . W-w-w-won’t . . . l-l-l-let y-y-y-you . . . be c-c-c-cold . . . a-a-any . . . m-m-m-more.” Remeku’s heart pounded loudly in her ears. Her eyes were closed tightly, trying to see if this was even real. Didn’t Mikael think they had only known each other for a day and a half? Why did it feel like everything was normal? These kinds of moments were things that happened in their childhood . . . It felt so normal now . . . even though Remeku knew that it was far from it. Mikael needed his memories back, and even when he got them back . . . he would only have memories of the fake version of Remeku. She wasn’t the ultimate alchemist like she thought she was . . . she was the ultimate sorceress, and she barely even knew how to tell the difference between an explosion potion and a truth serum. She was so confused at the moment. It didn’t matter though. She was only worrying about her sidekick. Beside the fact that she was trembling herself, she stayed close to Mikael, and didn’t let go until he wouldn’t be so cold anymore. Remeku slowly but surely helped Mikael back in the cottage. She wouldn't just leave him out there like garbage. It seemed that it would take a while for Mikael to get warmed up, so she got a blanket from upstairs and put it around him. She ruffled Mikael's hair and gave a sweet smile.
"I'll be back for you . . ." Remeku then got up and ran out of the cottage. She then threw the potion.
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Cat glared daggers at Kirimi as he spoke. The temperature in the room was colder, and not just because the door had been opened. "Everything is going to be A-OK!?" she spat. "Are you serious? Look at my son. He's traumatized. You don't even know what he's going through. I don't even know what he's going through. And you think we can just smile and it will all go away? Well, guess what? That's not how the world works. You acknowledge what the problem is, and you do something about it. You don't just pretend that it'll get better if you plug your ears and close your eyes and sing songs about unicorns and rainbows!" She shook with anger, and her gaze dropped to Remeku. Her voice dropped a few pitches. "Why don't you actually help and take care of Remeku? You can start by taking her into one of the many rooms in here with an actual bed. It's better than dumping her on the floor and then smiling about it."~~~
Kirimi stepped away from cat and put his arms in front of himself, to protect himself.
”C-Cat . . . ! I-I . . . I’m sorry . . . I didn’t mean t-to . . .” Kirimi was speechless. He couldn’t quite understand what just happened.
”I just want everyone to be happy . . .” Kirimi calmly closed his eyes, in deep thought, and walked out of the cottage, completely ignoring what she said about his sister.
”Yelling helps no one . . .” Kirimi heard half of what Kishima had explained and saw him break down into tears.
”DO YOU EVEN HEAR YOURSELF!?” Kirimi ran up to the barrier indignantly.
”HOW PATHETIC YOU SOUND!?” Kirimi’s eyes lit with the flame inside of him.
”DO YOU THINK CRYING LIKE A LITTLE BABY IS GOING TO SOLVE ANYTHING!?!?” Kirimi banged on the barrier. He felt like he could tear something in half and then break it over this brat’s head.
”YOU GET NO MERCY FOR WHAT YOU HAVE SAID! MAYBE YOU THINK IT’S OKAY, BUT I DON’T! YOU INSULTED ONE OF MY STUDENTS AND NOW YOU’RE GOING TO ACT LIKE YOUR SAD ABOUT IT!? NO! YOU ARE GOING TO COMPLETELY DESERVE EVERYTHING YOU GET! YOUR SINS ARE YOUR PUNISHMENTS FOR ALL OF THE CHAOS YOU CAUSE! YOU’RE SUCH A STUPID ANTAGONIST I CAN’T EVEN LOOK AT YOU! I WISH YOU WERE DEAD! DEAD! DEAD! DEAD! DEAD! DEAD! DEEEAAAD!” Kirimi kicked and banged on the barrier with all of his force, despite the fact that his knuckles felt like they were bleeding.
”I WISH YOU COULD SEE THE EXPRESSION ON YOUR FACE RIGHT NOW! A CRYING BABY WHO THINKS THAT IT IS THIS EASY TO GET AWAY WITH WHAT YOU DID! I AM SO DONE! SO FREAKING DONE! WHO RAISED YOU!? PEOPLE FROM HELL!? OR DO YOU JUST THINK YOUR THAT AMAZING THAT IT’S EASY FOR YOU TO BE FORGIVEN! NO! YOU’RE WRONG! I WILL NOT TAKE YOUR NONSENSE! EVERYONE IS IN STRESS RIGHT NOW, AND MOST OF IT IS YOUR FAULT! I HONESTLY FEEL BAD FOR YOU AND THE PEOPLE THAT HAVE TO DEAL WITH YOUR FOOLISH SELF, YOU IGNORANT LITTLE RUNT!” Kirimi screamed as high as his voice could go. It wasn’t very far, but far enough to sound intimidating. He snarled at Kishima like a wolverine. When this barrier came down, he would tear him apart.
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She opened her eyes to the sight of Lumica crying onto Remeku, and Cat's expression softened. She reached for the girl, hesitated, then gently placed her hand on Lumica's shoulder. "Hey," she said. "I'm . . . I can't promise that everything's going to be okay. I wish I could. But, I . . . " she bit her lip as she considered her phrasing. "I think that you've been trying to be strong for everyone else for so long. And you are. You're so brave. But maybe you're forgetting to take care of yourself. Stop and take a breath and, and let someone else be strong for you sometimes." She withdrew her hand and sighed, raking her hand through her hair. "Anyway. I hope you know that I'm here for you if you need me. And . . . I think Remeku should be in a bed, don't you? What do you say we move her?"~~~
Lumica wiped her tears and nodded.
”Yeah . . . you’re right. Thanks, Miss Zemmern.” Lumica’s said shakingly. She stood up and slowly picked Remeku up in her arms. She was surprisingly light in weight, witch made it easy to move her in one of the many bedrooms in the cottage. Lumica pulled the covers over Remeku and sat on the edge of the bed next to her.
”I’m sorry La La . . . Or . . . I guess if you’re really that strang boy’s sister then it would be something else . . .” Lumica looked off into space for a moment and then looked back at Remeku. It was kind of strange, now that Lumica looked at Remeku. Even though this was just a Virtual World, her form looked almost real. Like Lumica was actually looking at the true version of Remeku. It was an odd feeling. Lumica was tempted to touch Remeku elf ears and see if they were really there but she strained herself.
”I am proud to know that I got to become friends with you . . . Even if it does truly break my heart that you don’t spend as much time with me as you do with Mikael . . .” Lumica didn’t expect an answer from Remeku. She was talking to herself at this moment.
”When . . . we braided each other's hair, climbed trees even though we weren't allowed. If you’d fall, I’d catch you. If I fell, you would catch me. We would dress up as our favorite characters from TV shows and mangas . . . and even each other. My mom would get mad at us because we would use her make up to play around. You always loved drawing. Your sketches were amazing, even though it was all sciency . . . All I could draw was stick people and even I was bad at that. You had a strange love for horror, maybe it’s because you always called your life a horror movie . . . I honestly don’t understand why you love him . . . We have been through so much together . . .” Lumica let out a sigh. These were things she wouldn’t say to Remeku if she were conscious. Things that she kept inside because she thought they were worthless feelings. Worthless feelings or not, they would come out some day, maybe in the wrong ears. Kishima who can read minds may find out and kill her. Who knows, Mikael may be first. Lumica wasn’t worried, considering Remeku would hate Kishima if he were to even think about it.
”You asked for all of this, odd boy . . .”
*coughs awkwardly*
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